my weekend.

this weekend.
friday: after school me and kelsey went to sioux falls. to finish up our prom shopping and get our nails done (which are really hard to write/type with) which mine are kinda a little longer than kelseys. its gonna be hard to work with these things. but they look nice. becca chilled with us for a bit at the mall and walmart.. it was pretty cool that she was there. she talked about her boyfriend alot. i met her boyfriend, and 2 friends. we left around 7:30ish i think. so we were on our way home and about 2 miles on the interstate, i was digging for my chap stick and kelsey looked down at her phone to check the time. and guess what. a deer ran out and hit us. we were only going like 65 mph. it hit the sid of the car. knocked the head light out and cracked the radiator. i'm like "kelsey we just hit a deer" she was in shock and denied it but i made her stop so we could look at the damage. she didn't want to look so i volunteered, i got out and looked at it. i was completely shocked that a adolecent deer could do that much damage to a car. my face was in shock. my eyes and mouth were open the widest they could go. i'm like you have to see this. she called her mom. she was crying so i had to take the phone and talk to her, i explained and described everything. her mom told us to just stay there and they would come and get us. so we stayed there becca and her friends came and gave us some company. beccas boyfriend told us what was wrong with the car, which basically the radiator was cracked and that needed to be replaced and stuff lik that. so we waited for kelsey's parents to get there and they loaded the car up on the trailer and we went home.
saturday:: couldn't really sleep in late, so i woke up around 9:30. cleaned my room a bit then chilled for a bit till i got my hair done. it looked beautiful. it rained really hard! hailed a little. then we took pictures at 4. jonny and trevor came over. trevor walked in and i like gasped kinda, a smile lite my face when i first seen him. he looked so good! he cleaned up very nice. he was very hot and sexy. :) grandma and grandpa came over and took pictures. we took like a million pictures. my cheecks hurt because there were so many pictures lol. then we drove around for a long while. he let me drive for a bit. which was really cool. he like offered it and i was surprised cuz its a huge diesel truck. but i got to for what about a half hour/ 45 min or so. it was pretty great. but then i went to my house and got my clothes for the after prom party cuz trevor wanted me to change at his house. so i did. then he got in and drove till the banquet. which was the junior senior banquet. it was cool. i got my glass and we ate and stuff. stolp gave a speech and stuff. and trevor did the beef hot links commercial. he had to. it was sweet. he got really embarressed, his face turned bright red. it was cute. so we got done with the banquet and we drove around for a while longer. went to the school and took pictures. then the grand march. there was alot of out of town dates. then the dance! :) me and trevor danced together alot. he was the only guy i danced with besides jonny wagner, he came up and i danced with him, but mary was there so i focused on her basically. but other than jonny i danced with trevor. we danced all the slow songs and most of the fast. but some of the songs were lame so we went and chilled. we were ready for the dance to be over the last hour of the dance. ha. after the dance we went to trevors and changed. he helpd me outta my dress and stuff. we changed and went to the after prom party. my favorite part was the hypnitist. he was halarious. trevor was hypnotised. he was so funny! he sang to shawnia twain. and he had to act like her to. i have most of it on video on my phone. andy and mary i say were the funniest. zac heumiller was faking it the whole time, everyone could tell, but he stayed up there. he just looked dumb. but chelsea, abby, and darin were up there to. abby was funny to. then it got done and we went and played games and stuff. i pretty much just watched trevor do games. i won a water bottle and thats it. he won a mini frige or whatver and a gift card to the trophy room. we went to his house after the after prom party and i went home at like 7:30ish. and went to bed.
sunday: i basically slept all day. woke up at 3, went and ate a bowl of cereal, went and laid back in bed till like 7, got up and went on facebook, then laid in bed til like 9 and got up to talk to my fam. then went to bed at like 11. ha i was a pile yesterday.
today: it rained this morning when i was walking to school. its pretty crappy and gloomy out. kelsey isn't here today. i wonder why??? i emailed her this morning. but no response. i'm sitting here suppose to be in spanish but the thing wont connect so i should probably go and find schock. :/

here we go.

today today today. today has been ok. i had to work last night 4-10. it gets exhausting cuz i was the float, which means i was down all of the wings running to get to the next transfer/lift. cleaned alot of people up. and charted like a mad woman. it was nuts. but anyway. me and trevor talked a little bit. he texted me at work probably around 6 or so. i can't really text back cuz your not even suppose to have your phone on you but ppl do anyway. so i texted back when i could. he asked what i wanted to take to prom. i wanted him to have that picked out already. it was between a jeep, jason lunders truck or something out. but i don't really wanna choose that. its his senior year prom. i want him to have it the way he wants it. i mean i would like a part of it to but really its his last year of prom i want him to have his way mainly. i want to look good for him. but we didn't talk all that much. and i went to bed. i said goodnight. but i didn't say i love you. i feel asleep. but then he said " i do care about you" i like seeing that this morning. but then i said "it doesn't seem like it" and he hasn't replied to that one yet. so i'm just gonna wait for him to email me first. i've been trying and he hasn't. its hard for it to only be a one way street ya know.

so maybe if i go out tonight which i plan on doing if we don't get back from sioux falls to late, and talk to trevor tonight. because prom is tomorrow and i don't want it to be awkward or anything . i want it to be great and perfect and everything. but we'll see how things go.

so i'm going to sioux falls with kelsey today!! :):) i'm excited. we're gonna go and get our nails done. then we're gonna get our jewlery and make up and stuff. and i guess becca is gonna hang out with us after we get our nails done. i kinda wanted it to be just me and kelsey all day. but she hasn't seen becca for like a month she said. so i guess she's gonna help pick out jewlery and stuff with us. i hope its fun with her. i just don't want to be left out or feel like i'm the third wheel or anything. cuz when she lived her-8th grade, her and kelsey were best friends, and i felt like the third wheel most of the time. but oh well. it should be fun--hopefully. ha

well nothing really left on my mind at the time. talk later maybe.

my stressful days. .

soooo. i think i'm gonna write today. i have alot to talk about. i haven't written in here for like a month or so.
so i went to state ffa in brookings. we left on sunday at noon. i sat with matt all the way up there. we got to the hotel and i hung out in matt, jordan, and bebo's room for most of the time. we went burger king and then we went to walmart. i had to go cuz i had to get a shirt, nylons, and black socks.. and we just messed around in there.. it was pretty fun. we had to go to a session that day. sooo we got all dressed up in OD. we all look so cool in OD. so professional ha. but after that, it got done at like 9:30. so when we got back i just chilled in my room with beth and lynze. beth is sooo messy. she had her stuff everywhere! it kinda got annoying, i had all my stuff in the little chair next to my bed. we ordered pizza that night. mmmm it was so good. but we went to bed at like 11:30, cuz we had to get up at 6 to shower and stufff.
monday: got up at 6, first one to shower, blew dried my hair, straightened and the whole 9 yards. so got in OD, and went to another session. kinda boring. wanted to sleep lol. got back to the hotel and chilled for a bit, i went swimming for about a half hour. i was only in the hot tube, it felt really good on my stressed back. i needed it. i could use a back rub also right now ha. so i showered again after that and got all did again lol. had another session, went back to the hotel room and changed and touched up a bit. then went to the dance. i had a really good time at the dance, i had to go and get a drink cuz i was really hot and started to sweat, i came back and to what to seeeee. i seen trevor and paige grinding! yeah i was majorly pist. i can't really explain the feeling. i wanted to cry. matt got in my face and said it was alright. i screamed at him saying it was not all right. he better get the fuck off of her. they better stop now. i didn't do anything about it. i wish i would of gone up to them and stopped them myself and made a big scene or something. but i didnt. i sat there and watched them. beau came up to me and asked if i wanted to dance. he said if he can dance with another girl than i can dance with another guy. so i danced with beau the rest of that song + another song. then after that trevor thought he could dance with me. she he started dancing with me. i told him to go dance with paige again, and he said he would rather not, so i barely danced with him. he left and i think he went and told paige something but idk what he said. and brock started dancing on me so i'm like ok, brock you wanna dance? and he's like surrrre. so we started dancing, and trevor came back and he was like what the fuck?! he's like whatever and he left. so i'm like whatever i'm gonna keep dancing. you left so whatever. then after that i'm like where'd trevor go and no body knew. so i'm whatever god. so i went and got a drink and went to the bathroom to cool down a bit. then i came back and brock said that trevor asked where i was, but he left again. so idk . and then the last song came on and zach bies asked me to dance so i'm like surrre i guess i can do that. so i started dancing with him and i found trevor, he was standing off to the side, i think he was watching me or something but i don't really care. so dance got over and i followed matt and jordan out and we sat there for a couple min. trevor came up behind me and said i'm leaving, peace. and i'm like yep. bye. i texted him and i'm like wow more fuckin secrets. and he's like what. whats going on. what are you talking about. i'm like really. you had to jump on paige once i left huh. real sneaky. and then he like blew up on me. i told him not to talk to me and then he's like way to be mature, i'm like way to piss off your girlfriend. then he's like i can't believe your associating yourself with me. i'm like i don't have to. he's like do what you got to do. then i said ok really. i about cried when i seen you with paige, but i guess you do what you got to do. and yeah. then he didn't respond after that. so i just went to bed.
tuesday: woke up at 6:20ish, showered, blow dried hair, and threw it up cuz i didn't really want to do anything with it. so went to the session and blah. i texted trevor saying "what do you want with me" he was like what, what do you mean. i said it was a pretty straight forward question. and he said idk. what do you want to happen. i told him i was unsure. i don't remember much. but i told him i don't feel like there is much loyalty, honesty and respect. he said he doesn't lie to me, he is loyal.. which really isn't true. i told him he doesn't really respect me that much. and he kinda agreed. and i asked why. and he said it doesn't matter. and i asked why it didn't matter. and he said he would tell me in person cuz he didn't want to tell me over text or something. kinda makes me worry. .
but yesterday we got back at 3, i took a nap when i got home from school. woke up at 6. went and tanned with my mom while she worked out a bit. then got home, ate supper. i went walking at 8 by myself. it was good. i like excersing or however you spell that. i invited trevor to go with me so we could talk but he didnt, even though he said he would. so i walked by myself. and then he invited me over at like 9:10. whick i had to be home at 9:30. so i was only there for like 10 min maybe. cuz it took me some time to walk there. seth was there. he told him to leave. so i crawled up on him bed where he was and sat there. it was 3 min before i had to leave. he's like so start talking.. i didn't really want to start something that was not going to get finished. he's like if your not gonna talk i'm gonna go work out. i'm like god, i'll leave. so i got up and left. he went and worked out, i went home and went to bed.
and now i'm here sitting in spanish, writing this novel. not really paying attention.. but i thought i would write in this for a bit since i haven't written in here and i have alot to say.. so kels i hope this takes up your "bored" time lol.
i didn't cover some of the stuff but i got most of it. ha