so yesterday was the first day away from basketball!! and i'm lovin it. just the time is amazing :) i had school which was sooo sloow! but after i went and had my interveiw at the nursing home for the CNA position. my mom said i was hired to my dad last night. i'm excited to start. i have my drug test and a skin test today after school. so this is how i spent my time: went to interveiw, picked up my brother, tanned & talked to kayla at bodyworks cuz she was working out, then i went home and watched my brother, did some bio homeowork that was piled on me. and at 8.30 went to matts and we did some bio too.
today. i'm gonna do my drug test, hopefully tan, do some homework. i actually want to get a one month membership to bodyworks so i don't get fat for prom. and hopefully in a month it will be nice out so i can run and stuff out side.
tomorrow: i'm gonna go to state wrestling!! miss school and watch 5 of our boys wrestle. and probably chill in sioux falls. i'm going with chelsea, karen, and brooke. i hope it doesn't get boring or anything.
saturday. i plan to hang out with sierra. cuz it was her birthday yesterday. and she is now 16. so and idk what we're going to do. that day is unplanned. so we'll see whats in store for this weekend. ha
talk to you laterrrrrrR.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
. .MoNdaY feB 22, 2010. .
Sunday, February 21, 2010
So it’s Sunday. I’m bored and I kinda wanna write. I’ll go back to Friday. I don’t have wireless internet so I’m writing in a word document right now. I’ll just copy and paste.
Friday: school, game. We played Flandreau. Jv won and varsity lost. I don’t know what it takes for our varsity to actually win some games. We go to districts on Tuesday. We go to Parkston and play Parkston. I’m scared. They’re rated number 1 in state. I want to have a positive attitude but really it hard to. So anyway, after the game, me and matt giesler went out. I asked to go home with him since our game was in Montrose and it’s technically called a home game. Well I asked McGregor and he said “notta chance” I was like really. Wow you’re a fag. Get over yourself. You’re retarded. I was pretty upset. So I had to ride the bus home. When I got home me and matt went and got some cheese balls from the brewery. After that we went out to summer house. I was really tired. But it was something to do and I didn’t want to just go home. So I got home at 11:30 (my curfew). Trevor kinda seemed upset but idk at what. He said he had a migraine or whatever. So he slept a lot the next day.
Saturday: had practice at 9am! Got up at 7:30, left on the bus at 8:30, practiced for about 2 hours, came home, went and tanned with my mom at noon, came home, showered, got ready and went to the region wrestling at like 2 with Brianna. 5 of our MCM wrestlers are going to state!! Ben and Dominic Blindert, Drew and Derek Eldeen, and Cody Eichmann are going. I’m really proud of drew and Ben. I knew Dominic was gonna go. But I wasn’t expecting Ben or Drew to make it because of their mentality. So I think I might miss school on Friday and go watch our guys at State! Anyway, We sat there till like 6 then I went home for about an hour and then I went back to the wrestling thing because Brianna went to Travis’s and I wanted to go out. So I went back till like 9. Me matt and Miranda went out to the summer house after the wrestling thing was over around 9ish… me and trevor went upstairs, his hormones were goin and I was just tired. So we didn’t do anything, just laid there. I almost fell asleep because I was comfy and he was playing with my hair. I love it when ppl play with my hair. It’s so relaxing. So I left and went home at curfew. Crashed hard after I went to the bathroom cuz I had to go really bad lol.
Sunday: slept in till about 12:30ish. Got up, ate some breakfast, went and tanned with mom again, came home, showered, laid around and was lazy. Durfee invited the varsity basketball girls over to his house at 5. He fed us pizza and we watched some of our game film from when we played Parkston and a little bit of some college basketball (durfee’s favorite college basketball team, Syracuse). Then I came home, watched a little tv (winter Olympics), showered… and now writing in here. It was kinda a boring weekend. I’ve just been tired. I just want to lay in Trevors arms, cuddle, and sleep…
and today:: its first hour and i'm tired. went to trevor's this morning and woke him up and stuff. walked to school. i hope today goes by fast. its hopefully our last bball practice. and districts tomorrow! if we lose than we're done. i should be free on wednesday so then i can hang out with trevor for a while. i'm excited. we'll see how today goes...
So it’s Sunday. I’m bored and I kinda wanna write. I’ll go back to Friday. I don’t have wireless internet so I’m writing in a word document right now. I’ll just copy and paste.
Friday: school, game. We played Flandreau. Jv won and varsity lost. I don’t know what it takes for our varsity to actually win some games. We go to districts on Tuesday. We go to Parkston and play Parkston. I’m scared. They’re rated number 1 in state. I want to have a positive attitude but really it hard to. So anyway, after the game, me and matt giesler went out. I asked to go home with him since our game was in Montrose and it’s technically called a home game. Well I asked McGregor and he said “notta chance” I was like really. Wow you’re a fag. Get over yourself. You’re retarded. I was pretty upset. So I had to ride the bus home. When I got home me and matt went and got some cheese balls from the brewery. After that we went out to summer house. I was really tired. But it was something to do and I didn’t want to just go home. So I got home at 11:30 (my curfew). Trevor kinda seemed upset but idk at what. He said he had a migraine or whatever. So he slept a lot the next day.
Saturday: had practice at 9am! Got up at 7:30, left on the bus at 8:30, practiced for about 2 hours, came home, went and tanned with my mom at noon, came home, showered, got ready and went to the region wrestling at like 2 with Brianna. 5 of our MCM wrestlers are going to state!! Ben and Dominic Blindert, Drew and Derek Eldeen, and Cody Eichmann are going. I’m really proud of drew and Ben. I knew Dominic was gonna go. But I wasn’t expecting Ben or Drew to make it because of their mentality. So I think I might miss school on Friday and go watch our guys at State! Anyway, We sat there till like 6 then I went home for about an hour and then I went back to the wrestling thing because Brianna went to Travis’s and I wanted to go out. So I went back till like 9. Me matt and Miranda went out to the summer house after the wrestling thing was over around 9ish… me and trevor went upstairs, his hormones were goin and I was just tired. So we didn’t do anything, just laid there. I almost fell asleep because I was comfy and he was playing with my hair. I love it when ppl play with my hair. It’s so relaxing. So I left and went home at curfew. Crashed hard after I went to the bathroom cuz I had to go really bad lol.
Sunday: slept in till about 12:30ish. Got up, ate some breakfast, went and tanned with mom again, came home, showered, laid around and was lazy. Durfee invited the varsity basketball girls over to his house at 5. He fed us pizza and we watched some of our game film from when we played Parkston and a little bit of some college basketball (durfee’s favorite college basketball team, Syracuse). Then I came home, watched a little tv (winter Olympics), showered… and now writing in here. It was kinda a boring weekend. I’ve just been tired. I just want to lay in Trevors arms, cuddle, and sleep…
and today:: its first hour and i'm tired. went to trevor's this morning and woke him up and stuff. walked to school. i hope today goes by fast. its hopefully our last bball practice. and districts tomorrow! if we lose than we're done. i should be free on wednesday so then i can hang out with trevor for a while. i'm excited. we'll see how today goes...
Friday, February 19, 2010
--feb. 19. 2010--
ok. so this is the second time writing in here. i don't write much but i kinda like it. i like say it in my head as i'm writing ha. oh and i'm in geometry writing this. ppl talking all around. ppl wandering around. ppl staring. and ppl lost.
yesterday we had a game. i was really motivated to do anything. i hung out with trevor for about an hour. but it only seemed like it was 15 min. but it was better than nothing. the jv game went pretty good. i play pretty hard and well i think. always room to improve. i try really hard because i really love the game. i'm out on the court worry about nothing but gettin that ball in that round hoop with the net. hustle, work, push, slap, trip, fall, miss, and oh maybe a couple points here and there. i love to score. its such a great feeling. like you helped your team to get that much closer to winning. the things i hate about basketball is practicing and the coaches yelling. like really we just want to have fun. we win when we have fun and lose when you scream at us and think its just strickly buisness.
bells gonna ring. next period. half hour study hall and then spanish :/
alright. i'm in the spanish room writing.
anyway. basketball. i played all 4 quarters of the jv. i was only suppose to play 3 and go get ready for varsity at the end of the 3rd quarter but mcgregor left me in there. oh well i guess. i'd rather play with jv i think. both mcgregor and durfee apoligized to me. it wasn't that big of a deal to me. i mean i would love to play more varsity. but not just go in and come right back out. i would actually like to stay in and play for a while. show them what i got you know. we were in baltic. i seen becca. she was there with her little sister miranda. becca is beautiful. i wonder if she came there to see me, see how i actually played or if she attends activities all the time. i really wanted to go over there and talk to her maybe give her a hug. but she would probably have been like wtf. we never talk. like what the hell or something. idk. i think we made eye contact a couple times. cuz i would look at her and i think she was looking at me. or at least in my direction. i think i seen her smile once, but not at me. i think at her sister the guy next to her. idk who he was. just a person.
so today. i just want to go home. like every other day. i'm tired and have really no motivation. no homework so far. had a test in history, reviewed or something in english, finished my worksheet in geometry and here i sit in 4th period. maybe get spanish homework or maybe bio. but we're finishing the movie in bio and ag. never get homework. 6th hour is my study hall. i enjoy that.
i think me and trevor are doing great right now. talking. hanging out. enjoying each other. no sexual stuff. which i love not doing. we just hold each other. its such a great feeling. i love the feeling of his body against mine. i don't regret talking to matt. i'm still gonna talk to him. he gave me a perfect point that i can still talk to him. its called trust. he told me himself he isn't going to try to get with me or anything while im dating trevor. and trevor and brooke talked about the time when matt and brooke were dating. so we should be fine. matt gives great advice. i love talking to him. he's really nice and funny. but i love trevor. i hope he knows that. i feel safe and secure in his arms. i just want to be there the rest of my life! but i have no idea where life is going to bring me. i'm only a sophomore. he was saying that he was thinking about marriage and kids and stuff already. well i'm to young to be thinking of that right now. give me some time.
but maybe i'll write later. i have to go and take some pictures for my spanish assignment that is due today hehe.
yesterday we had a game. i was really motivated to do anything. i hung out with trevor for about an hour. but it only seemed like it was 15 min. but it was better than nothing. the jv game went pretty good. i play pretty hard and well i think. always room to improve. i try really hard because i really love the game. i'm out on the court worry about nothing but gettin that ball in that round hoop with the net. hustle, work, push, slap, trip, fall, miss, and oh maybe a couple points here and there. i love to score. its such a great feeling. like you helped your team to get that much closer to winning. the things i hate about basketball is practicing and the coaches yelling. like really we just want to have fun. we win when we have fun and lose when you scream at us and think its just strickly buisness.
bells gonna ring. next period. half hour study hall and then spanish :/
alright. i'm in the spanish room writing.
anyway. basketball. i played all 4 quarters of the jv. i was only suppose to play 3 and go get ready for varsity at the end of the 3rd quarter but mcgregor left me in there. oh well i guess. i'd rather play with jv i think. both mcgregor and durfee apoligized to me. it wasn't that big of a deal to me. i mean i would love to play more varsity. but not just go in and come right back out. i would actually like to stay in and play for a while. show them what i got you know. we were in baltic. i seen becca. she was there with her little sister miranda. becca is beautiful. i wonder if she came there to see me, see how i actually played or if she attends activities all the time. i really wanted to go over there and talk to her maybe give her a hug. but she would probably have been like wtf. we never talk. like what the hell or something. idk. i think we made eye contact a couple times. cuz i would look at her and i think she was looking at me. or at least in my direction. i think i seen her smile once, but not at me. i think at her sister the guy next to her. idk who he was. just a person.
so today. i just want to go home. like every other day. i'm tired and have really no motivation. no homework so far. had a test in history, reviewed or something in english, finished my worksheet in geometry and here i sit in 4th period. maybe get spanish homework or maybe bio. but we're finishing the movie in bio and ag. never get homework. 6th hour is my study hall. i enjoy that.
i think me and trevor are doing great right now. talking. hanging out. enjoying each other. no sexual stuff. which i love not doing. we just hold each other. its such a great feeling. i love the feeling of his body against mine. i don't regret talking to matt. i'm still gonna talk to him. he gave me a perfect point that i can still talk to him. its called trust. he told me himself he isn't going to try to get with me or anything while im dating trevor. and trevor and brooke talked about the time when matt and brooke were dating. so we should be fine. matt gives great advice. i love talking to him. he's really nice and funny. but i love trevor. i hope he knows that. i feel safe and secure in his arms. i just want to be there the rest of my life! but i have no idea where life is going to bring me. i'm only a sophomore. he was saying that he was thinking about marriage and kids and stuff already. well i'm to young to be thinking of that right now. give me some time.
but maybe i'll write later. i have to go and take some pictures for my spanish assignment that is due today hehe.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
((feb. 17. 2010))
ha ok. so this is the first time i've writtin on this since may of 2009. pretty darn close to a year ago. how silly is that. kelsey actually just recommended it that i started writting in this again. she thinks it could help us get closer. hopefully it works.
so i'm sitting in ag. right now. pretty close to stack chairs, for the bell to ring, and go drag myself to basketball practice. i'll write more after practice maybe. if not then tomorrow for sure. :)
ok. so i never got on my computer last night.. so i'm sitting in first hour history.
i don't really like this class. but i think its my easiest class.
when i talked to trevor last night he brought up the same convo that he did the other night. and it was about matt nelson. i guess brooke told trevor that me and matt have been talking. and we have. i admit it, it is pretty wrong. but i've like matt since 8th grade. my feelings have never changed for him. i still like him. i don't think i'll ever not like him.. but me and trevor discussed. and i'm not gonna talk to matt anymore. i want trevor. not anyone else. he's my boyfriend and i want to keep it that way.
the other night i relized that he really did care about me which i was so unsure about for a long time. that kinda why e and matt have started talking. but i'm gonne email matt and tell him that we shouldn't be talking because i don't want to lose trevor and its kinda almost like cheating or wanting someone different. but we can still be friends and stuff.
there are some rumors going around. and some of trev's friends are telling him that i don't care and that i wouldn't be trustworthy with other guys. well i'm gonna prove them wrong.
but my friends tell me i can do better and he doesn't deserve me and stuff. we'll see how things go.
i'll write back later. i'm gonna post this. :)
so i'm sitting in ag. right now. pretty close to stack chairs, for the bell to ring, and go drag myself to basketball practice. i'll write more after practice maybe. if not then tomorrow for sure. :)
ok. so i never got on my computer last night.. so i'm sitting in first hour history.
i don't really like this class. but i think its my easiest class.
when i talked to trevor last night he brought up the same convo that he did the other night. and it was about matt nelson. i guess brooke told trevor that me and matt have been talking. and we have. i admit it, it is pretty wrong. but i've like matt since 8th grade. my feelings have never changed for him. i still like him. i don't think i'll ever not like him.. but me and trevor discussed. and i'm not gonna talk to matt anymore. i want trevor. not anyone else. he's my boyfriend and i want to keep it that way.
the other night i relized that he really did care about me which i was so unsure about for a long time. that kinda why e and matt have started talking. but i'm gonne email matt and tell him that we shouldn't be talking because i don't want to lose trevor and its kinda almost like cheating or wanting someone different. but we can still be friends and stuff.
there are some rumors going around. and some of trev's friends are telling him that i don't care and that i wouldn't be trustworthy with other guys. well i'm gonna prove them wrong.
but my friends tell me i can do better and he doesn't deserve me and stuff. we'll see how things go.
i'll write back later. i'm gonna post this. :)
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