so today i think is a good day. woke up happy. showered, dressed, did my hair. yeah i straightened my hair for the first time this week ha. i had it up all week but today is the day that i straightened it. and it looks good lol. i'm in such a good mood. i love it. i want to talk to everyone and anyone. talk and giggle and not do homework. haha
me and trevor talked on the phone last night for like 3 hours! he had a list of things for us to talk about. i'm glad we talked about whatever he had. we talked about me talking to matt nelson and john cain. cuz like i get upset when he talks to some girls. which i understand why he gets upset. but i told him i don't even have a crush on matt nelson anymore, i mean yeah he's cute and all but i just don't really like what he does. like he pooped in the basement out at the summer house. really.!. thats discusting. learn how to respect ppl's things, espscially at a house! and he hooked up with kayla kelly which is kinda weird but she's really pretty and i see why he did. she doesn't really get intimit with anyone.
trevor told ms. fleighs everything that we do and what we talk about and what he feels and stuff. its pretty weird. but yet its cool that they can talk and understand each other. we talked about his plans, he wants to be a power lineman and move to california. but i'm gonna be here. and he still wants to date. he hates not hanging out as much as we should, how are we gonna make it months without seeing each other. we talked about my dad. how i got in trouble on tuesday night. dad screamed at me. told me i'm a whore and i'm just a lying snake. i honestly cried from that moment till i went to bed. which was probably an hour. i cried myself to sleep. i hated that feeling. i told trevor that i wanted to physically hurt myself again cuz i was mentally in pain and i wanted it physical. he said he wouldn't let me, he would get me help, make me see a counciler and so on. we like argued about it, i wouldn't get help--no need for it. i don't want help. its my problem. i can deal with it. and at that time my dad was upstair yelling at my brother for probably no reason. he was cussing so much. f this and f that and your an f. FFFFF. really dad. get a grip of yourself. just leave! he has cheated on my mom when i was younger. but i'm pretty sure he still is. she doens't realize anything. he goes and eats with a woman all the time on my dads supper break from work or whatevever. really. get a guy friend to go with you. he thinks i'm a lie. he doensn't even know he's living a lie. i just want to tell him to fuck off and he can have nothing to do with me. ever.
i feel really bad for kelsey right now. she just broke up with jonny. i told her that trevor told me that jonny smokes weed all the time, or whenever he's around it. i want them to be perfect again. they were perfect a couple days ago and now its just all in a hole right now. but really he shouldn't of lied to her. he should just tell her the truth from the getko. you get in bigger trouble lying about something bad than actually saying it up front. but idk. i'm not sure what they're talking about. she's gonna email me their convo next hour. i'm nervous. i hope all the information i'm giving her is false. i'm just telling her whatever trevor is telling me. and i know he wouldn't lie to me. cuz he got in big trouble for lying to me before. i hope things work out for the best. i hope he tells her that he loves her and tells her the truth and they get back together. even though she said she was 100% done. i don't want them to be done. i want them to be good. prom is comming up. ahhhh.
game tonight. its in wagner. i'm going with mary, miranda, abbey, giesler. beau i think but not sure on him. i'm excited. everyone is wearing old time school basketball jerseys. i just thought of the idea that some wore same time era- cheerleading outfits. i wanna wear a cheerleading outfit. it would be so cute. and then maybe i could go by the cheerleaders and show them what i got lol. weird but its a thought. ha
maybe i'll write later. i'm in a half study hall right now. but i got to get some stuff done. :/ i want to be there for kelsey. i want her to come to the game tonight. i need to find her a ridee!!! i want to be with her! i hope she's alright.
me and trevor talked on the phone last night for like 3 hours! he had a list of things for us to talk about. i'm glad we talked about whatever he had. we talked about me talking to matt nelson and john cain. cuz like i get upset when he talks to some girls. which i understand why he gets upset. but i told him i don't even have a crush on matt nelson anymore, i mean yeah he's cute and all but i just don't really like what he does. like he pooped in the basement out at the summer house. really.!. thats discusting. learn how to respect ppl's things, espscially at a house! and he hooked up with kayla kelly which is kinda weird but she's really pretty and i see why he did. she doesn't really get intimit with anyone.
trevor told ms. fleighs everything that we do and what we talk about and what he feels and stuff. its pretty weird. but yet its cool that they can talk and understand each other. we talked about his plans, he wants to be a power lineman and move to california. but i'm gonna be here. and he still wants to date. he hates not hanging out as much as we should, how are we gonna make it months without seeing each other. we talked about my dad. how i got in trouble on tuesday night. dad screamed at me. told me i'm a whore and i'm just a lying snake. i honestly cried from that moment till i went to bed. which was probably an hour. i cried myself to sleep. i hated that feeling. i told trevor that i wanted to physically hurt myself again cuz i was mentally in pain and i wanted it physical. he said he wouldn't let me, he would get me help, make me see a counciler and so on. we like argued about it, i wouldn't get help--no need for it. i don't want help. its my problem. i can deal with it. and at that time my dad was upstair yelling at my brother for probably no reason. he was cussing so much. f this and f that and your an f. FFFFF. really dad. get a grip of yourself. just leave! he has cheated on my mom when i was younger. but i'm pretty sure he still is. she doens't realize anything. he goes and eats with a woman all the time on my dads supper break from work or whatevever. really. get a guy friend to go with you. he thinks i'm a lie. he doensn't even know he's living a lie. i just want to tell him to fuck off and he can have nothing to do with me. ever.
i feel really bad for kelsey right now. she just broke up with jonny. i told her that trevor told me that jonny smokes weed all the time, or whenever he's around it. i want them to be perfect again. they were perfect a couple days ago and now its just all in a hole right now. but really he shouldn't of lied to her. he should just tell her the truth from the getko. you get in bigger trouble lying about something bad than actually saying it up front. but idk. i'm not sure what they're talking about. she's gonna email me their convo next hour. i'm nervous. i hope all the information i'm giving her is false. i'm just telling her whatever trevor is telling me. and i know he wouldn't lie to me. cuz he got in big trouble for lying to me before. i hope things work out for the best. i hope he tells her that he loves her and tells her the truth and they get back together. even though she said she was 100% done. i don't want them to be done. i want them to be good. prom is comming up. ahhhh.
game tonight. its in wagner. i'm going with mary, miranda, abbey, giesler. beau i think but not sure on him. i'm excited. everyone is wearing old time school basketball jerseys. i just thought of the idea that some wore same time era- cheerleading outfits. i wanna wear a cheerleading outfit. it would be so cute. and then maybe i could go by the cheerleaders and show them what i got lol. weird but its a thought. ha
maybe i'll write later. i'm in a half study hall right now. but i got to get some stuff done. :/ i want to be there for kelsey. i want her to come to the game tonight. i need to find her a ridee!!! i want to be with her! i hope she's alright.
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